Saturday, August 20, 2011

WHATTA EXPERIENCE AGAIN ! (MY STUPIDITY) :D

August 20, 2011. :)

hello ! oooh . i just wanna share to you my SPECTACULAR experience yersterday :))

Well, 'twas my friends' birthday (krenna) she invited me and my classmates (BMLS -I) to go to her birthday which will be celebrated at Jack's Ridge.

okay here's what happened.

Maaga kami na  dismiss 2:30 in the afternoon after ng chem class namin, then nakauwi ako sa boarding house mga 3:30 na ata yun kasi nag plan pa kami para sa aming doxology na e present namin this monday kung saan magpractice,what time,etc. After nun,nag usap2x kami about sa birthday ni krenna, she said to us na magkita daw sa Matina Town Square (MTS) by 4:30 dun na daw kami e pick up tapos punta na sa Jack's Ridge basta nag usap2x na kami. Nagtanong2x kung what ang sakyan papunta dun, etc. Tapos ako,phoebe and ya know ! (HIM) plan that sabay kami papuntang MTS kasi in case na mawala may kasama hehe same man kami hindi pa alam what sasakyan kasi nga hindi kami taga davao so we made an agreement na sa RCBC kaming tatlo magkita.Yun okay na. After nun umuwi na kami... Sabay kami umuwi ni phoebe. Umaambon that time so nagdadalawang isip kami ni phoebe if pupunta pa ba kami o hindi na, Sabi ko sa kanya that if she'll go, I go. then in my mind ( If he'll go, I go) Pagdating ko sa boarding house Umulan na talaga so, parang ayoko na talagang pumunta tapos plano ko nalang sana nun is punta nalang ako sa gmall. Nagtext2x kami ni phoebe sabi ko sa kanya oh ano punta pa ba kami o hindi na, both of us is nag.aalanganin talagang pumunta tapos sabi ko sa kanya text mo daw si (him) kung pupunta siya. Siya nalang talaga yung babasihan ko, First reply ni phoebe is "di niya man sinasagot tawag ko and hindi rin siya nagrereply" so the moment i read that message parang ayoko na talaga, later on nagtext si phoebe sabi niya punta na raw ako sa RCBC kasi nag text na si (him) na punta na dun. The moment i receive that message talagang nagmamadali talaga ako haha :D di na ako nakapagchange ng t-shirt tapos di ko pa talaga na arrange yung gamit na dadalhin ko. So yun, nagsakay na ako ng tricycle papuntang RCBC. Pagdating ko sa RCBC hindi ko sila nakita, tapos sabi ko parang mali man siguro to na RCBC uy. Hindi ko alam sa isang RCBC pala kami magkita. tinawagan na ako ni phoebe sabi niya san na daw ako, nasa rcbc na raw sila etc. So yun, Mali pala talagang RCBC napuntahan. EH kasi naman sabi nung tricycle driver na isa lang daw ang RCBC, tanga ko talaga. I was worried that time. Baka di ako makasama.

You know what i did ? NAGLAKAD TALAGA AKO papunta dun sa kanila. IN FAIRNESS malayo siya. LUMAKAS pa TALAGA ang ULAN nun buti nalang may payong ako, tapos malapit na talaga mag 4:30 that time. I was really worried baka mainip sila sa kakahintay sakin, tapos iwanan nila ako then baka pagdating namin sa MTS maiwanan na kami ng jeep etc. Ang dami talagang negative outcomes na pumasok sa utak ko that time. I almost gave up and said to phoebe na di nalang ako magsama , maya-maya nun tumawag si phoebe sabi niya hintayin daw nila ako, so yun talagang patuloy akong naglakad. Hanggang sa nakaabot na ako dun sa harap ng rcbc, una nun di ko nakita si phoebe and (him) sabi ko sa sarili ko "patay baka umalis na sila, iniwanan na nila ako, sayang yung effort ko" hinanap ko sila, yun pala natakpan lang pala sila nung poste or something unang nakita ko si phoebe tinawag ko siya then sumunod si (him) the moment i saw HIM smiling at me, parang nawala. pagod ko and i'm so happy because i've made it. So yun, sabay na kami, The time was 4:50 i guess basta malapit na mag 5 then malayo pa biya yung mts, sabi ko sa sarili ko "shucks baka maiwanan kami and it is all my fault" Worried na ako, pero okay lang kasi kung di kami makasama punta nalang kami ng nccc mall.

Ang malas pa talaga nun kasi yung jeep na nasakyan namin umikot pa, so mas matatagalan kami. Talagang worried ako baka maiwanan kami and kasalanan ko talaga.. Sabi ko kay phoebe text mo raw si edda or art (classmate namin) kung nakaalis na sila, sabi nila nandun na raw ang jeep. Talagang kinabahan ako baka maiwanan talaga kami. Pero God is good talaga kasi napuno man ang jeep so may 2nd round pa. So yun, nakaabot pa kami. 5+ na kami nakarating dun. hehe :)

Pagdating namin sa MTS naghintay pa kami ng ilang minutes sa jeep na bumalik marami-rami din kami nun. So yun, happy ako.
Nakabalik na ang jeep so yun sakay na kami, alam mo ba what good happened "TABI KAMI ni (him) ! gaaaaash. " haha :D totoo pala talaga yung sabi2x na kapag malasin ka, later seswertehin ka. haha. I really like his smell. parang ayoko ng huminto yung jeep. Timing pa talaga pinatugtog yung JEEPNEY LOVE STORY by yeng constantino. haha :D talagang ang swerte ko talaga ba. haha :D

later nun, nakaabot na kami ng jack's ridge. Then nag happy2x na :D

"There's always a rainbow after the rain"

I guess, that would be all :)

-k2i6e6.kaimen-

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

I can't hide this feeling anymore..

I wanna tell him that i like him. But, I can't do it. I want and need this feeling to fade. It keeps on hurting me.

I'm scared of what will be his reaction if i said to him that i like him since the very first time i saw him. I know that  there's no chance that he likes me too. I know that he likes someone else. Am i gonna keep this or tell him ? 

well, hanggang first sem lang naman kami classmate. Because mag reshuffle man daw. So, I'm not gonna tell him. PERO, kung classmate ko pa rin siya second sem. Oh nooo ! I don't know what to do. I hope this feeling will fade. I hate it because habang patagal ng patagal mas nagiging crush ko siya. Grrr ! STUPID.

What will i do ? Gusto ko talaga na mawala na 'tong feelings na to. I wan't na wala na lang akong crush para happy. Para di na ako nasasaktan. Everytime nalang na pag may crush ako, expected na yan na " i will just get hurt" wala talagang magandang naidudulot sakin kapag nagkakacrush ako sa isang guy. Because i know that guy don't feel the same.

Lagi nalang talaga akong nasasaktan ba. I HATE IT ! why ? may nag curse ba sakin na everytime na magkakacrush ako masasaktan ako ? (sigh) I always keep on cheering up myself na "okay lang yan, darating din yung taong para sayo in the right time" but i guess that never happens. arrrgh !

AYOKO NA TALAGANG MAGKACRUSH OR MA FALL INLOVE SA ISANG GUY ! AYOKO NA TALAGA. BUT I CAN'T CONTROL MY HEART :((

Bakit pa kasi di nakokontrol ang puso. Yan tuloy maraming nasasaktan. (sigh)

sige hanggang dun lang muna. BYE !

-k2i6e6.kaimen-

Saturday, August 06, 2011

ANOTHER UNFORGETTABLE EXPERIENCE !

August 06,2011


 Oh my gosh ! I'm so stupid ! JUST BECAUSE I JUST WANTED TO DO SOMETHING I REALLY LIKE MAY KAPALIT NA DISASTER.

 well, ganito kasi yan. May audition sa modern dance for the intrams this day sa department namin (legions). then, Tomorrow is our tree planting sa NSTP namin.

Now,Required ang t-shirt namin sa nstp na dapat yun ang suotin. Pag walang t-shirt di makasali, pag hindi makasali, walang certificate and that certificate is one of our requirements para makagraduate. Now, nasa laundry shop yung t-shirt ko sa NSTP. Di ko nakuha kasi nga nag sali ako sa audition and malapit na mag 8pm natapos. Then, yung laundry shop close na by 7pm. di ko na rin makukuha tomorrow kasi sunday. It's close. Oh my gosh ! I'm so stupid. what will i do ?

 Dapat di nalang ako nagsali sa audition or ako nalang naglaba sa aking tshirt. (sigh) KASALANAN KO TALAGA BA ! But, IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG IN DOING WHAT I JUST WANTED TO DO ? I LOVE DANCING SO MUCH THAT I CAN'T GIVE IT UP.  Since i am still young dancing is a part of my life na talaga.I JUST DID WHAT I REALLY WANNA DO.

okay so yun, wala na akong t-shirt..I'm so hopeless na.

 But something really NICE and GREAT happened !

i have 2 plans in order to have the t-shirt... 1st plan is tinext ko friend ko, nagtanong ako if may t-shirt siya sa nstp para sa kanya nalang ako mag borrow but unfortunately wala. By that time, I WAS REALLY HOPELESS AND SAD !. well, now my second choice is that i have a boardmate who is my schoolmate. She's a sophomore already. Then, i plan to ask her to borrow her t-shirt but i'm shy to her, we are not yet that close. So,what i did is that i didn't ask it to her directly, I said it first to ate ken (the caretaker of our boarding house) then ate ken said it to her. Later on, ate ken approached me and said that e check muna daw ng ka boardmate ko if nadala niya because maybe she left it on their house sa province nila. By that time, I was really really HOPELESS AND VERY VERY SAD. !

what i did is that I PRAYED AND PRAYED AND PRAYED TO GOD.

later on, ate ken knocked the door. Then when i opened it may NSTP t-shirt na ! OH MY GOSH. I WAS LIKE :OD gaash ! I'm So Happy and thankful. I CAN REALLY FEEL IT THAT GOD IS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME. marami na talagang mga nangyaring ganito sa akin ba.

 yung FEELING NA you were so HOPELESS and SAD. and then you just PRAYED then later PROBLEM SOLVED. yung ganun ? Oh my gosh ! I'm so thankful.

mmm. regarding nga pala sa audition ko. It was fun and nerve wracking ! haha :D hindi ko talaga alam anong pinag gagagawa ko kanina. I just enjoyed it. Another experience na naman :D well, ang daming magagaling uy ! as in. I'm pretty sure hindi na ako accepted. but whatever the result is. It's okay with me. It was worth it. :D it makes me happy. :D DOING THINGS I LIKE AND WANT REALLY MAKES ME HAPPY ! :D pero gusto ko talaga matanggap. if di ako matanggap, It's okay. Maybe this is not the right time or not the right thing for me. Mag audition nalang ako sa acoustic . HAHA :D

that would be all :)
God saves the day !
Godbless yah !

-k2i6e6.kaimen-