A really really big DIFFERENCE ..

Hey guys ! how are ya? I just wanna share to you what I'm feeling right now... :(((( But first of all I wanna apologize for not writing here anymore. It's because sometimes I don't feel like writing and often times I'm busy.

Sooo...

You know, I really don't like the things around me and myself anymore. Everything's changed. A lot of things changed. "ME" in the "PAST" is really really different from "ME" today as well as the THINGS IN THE PAST and THE THINGS TODAY. I don't know who I am right now. I feel like I'm always sad. I over think of things. I'm always stress. I'm becoming very sensitive and emotional.

I hate this feeling and I feel like this everyday. I really don't know how to cope up with this feeling. It's really really difficult. The crazy,funny and happy ME disappears.

Well, people think that there's nothing wrong, as if I am happy and as if I don't have a problem. Maybe because I am really good at hiding what I truly feel and pretending that I am happy and that nothing is wrong but they don't know that I'm really really really sad. They don't know what I've been going through. I don't know why and what causes me to be like this and to feel like this but I think and guess that maybe it's the changes that is happening around me which causes me to be and feel like this. For me, It's really really difficult to ACCEPT changes especially at the moment when you're already contented of what you have.

Umm.. Today, Aug.04,2012, is our Acquaintance Party and I didn't go. You know why ? just a simple reason. I'M TIRED and DON'T LIKE TO FEEL TIRED. I don't mean PHYSICALLY TIRED but EMOTIONALLY TIRED.

I don't want to feel insecure and get jealous to my fellow students who will be performing this night because I will just be remembering the past and it will just give me pain. To be honest, I really miss DANCING and PERFORMING if there is an activity in the school. DANCING IS MY PASSION but I gave it up. I had promised that if we will be the champion in our PE FINAL EXAM last March 04,2012, I will stop dancing and the reason why I thought of that consequence is confidential.

I advice people to be optimistic and not to be pessimistic. Its easy to say to other people but to apply it on myself, Its difficult for me "now". I really hope that I will not over think of things. Come what may and I should accept everything that will happen to me ...

(sigh) I hope the old me will go back ... THE CRAZY,FUNNY,TALKATIVE and JOKER ME.. :(

that would be all for now ..

-k2i6e6.kaimen-

A lot of talk ..

I'm here :) I'm so sorry for being inactive this past few days. It's because i'm busy with school and other stuffs and whenever i have time, I became lazy to write something here. So, I'm really sorry guys.

Since I've been gone for a long time, I have a lot of things to share with you. First is that my days of being a freshmen student finally come to an end. After all the circumstances and hardships that I've gone through the school year 2011-2012, I'm proud to say that I had made it and I survived. I'm really happy that it is all over. :) Now, I'm preparing myself to a greater challenge and I hope that i would be able to make it. I'm not so excited for summer because we will have a class about Organic Chem and English, I hope that i will be able to pass it. Anyway, my grades are okay. :) They are better than my grades last semester. Now, I'm waiting for my final grade to be complete and i'm hoping that it will be high because I want to pursue my goal and that is to be a part of the second honor list. So much for that.
Now, let's talk about my Family. Well, my relationship with my family is good. We are even closer now. I think it's because of distance. Umm, I really don't have anything else to say about my family so let's talk about something else.
If you would ask me if how is my Love life going, I'm gonna answer you that it is just the same before. I am still single but happy :) Anyway, I have a new crush :D I'm not gonna tell you his name for privacy. hahaha :D He's kind, tall, handsome and smart. We communicate only through Facebook but hopefully someday, we will be able to communicate personally. I'm inspired because of him. ayiiiie ;) I guess that would be all for now. I don't have anything else to talk about and I'm tired and sleepy now. It's almost 12 in the morning. whew ! bye guys. Take care. God Bless.

-k2i6e6.kaimen

WELCOME TWENTY TWELVE (:

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE !

Goodbye 2011. Hello 2012.

This is my first post here this year :) Like I said on my last post, I'm gonna write here my new years resolution. But before that, I would like to say something.

This past few days, I have been an observer and I have observed that there are things in this fantastic world of ours that are some kind of mysterious and it's bothering me.Why do people created some things that are just so unexplainable? I mean, How did they come up of thinking of creating things that you wouldn't believe that it's possible to create? Well, I guess people are just amazing. Just like their creator, Our CREATOR, which is God. I have a lot of questions in my mind that i think even the smartest or intelligent person cannot answer. I know that only HIM can answer this. I just want these questions of mine to stop bothering me but I think time will come that these will be answered.

PATIENCE. Well, this 2012 I should have more of this what you called PATIENCE. Honestly, I have a short patience. I hate waiting too long. I don't know why but i will try my best to make this PATIENCE of mine to be long.
EAT LESS. They said that I've become chubby these days. *haha* I eat a lot that's why. well, I love FOODS so much that i have forgotten about my body figure. I'm not that fat but i have to lessen taking in of food. This year, I should have a perfect  I mean not perfect but some kind of good body figure. whatever... blah blah. hihihi*
LEARN TO PRIORITIZE. yes, I should learn to prioritize. Have you noticed me last year being so obsess to have a LOVE LIFE? My blog last year was full of emotions and sadness because of that little thing called INFATUATION. haha* I should not be in a rush to have a "LOVYDABY" I should focus on my studies. I will do my very best in school this year not only this year but for the coming years to come :)

Well, I only have a few new year's resolution and the LAST TWO, i guess, is the most important of all and that is to be...

JUST MYSELF. yeah ! I love myself ! haha :D it is indeed true that we don't need a new year to come to change ourselves. I will just be myself. THIS IS REAL,THIS IS ME. I don't care if they won't like me. I have GOD by my side.

and to be...

CLOSER TO GOD. yeah ! I should focus my whole attention to grant this new year's resolution of mine. Even though I can't do those i have written above, I should do this one. This is the most important of all. And even though you don't have anything, IF YOU HAVE GOD, then THERE WOULD BE NO PROBLEM. In him everything will be alright ! AMEN. hihihi :)

I guess that would be all for now. bye ! :O)
Have a prosperous new year to all :D

-k2i6e6.kaimen-

First and Last...

Greetings ! :)

It's been a long time since i have written anything here. I was not able to write here for about 1 month and now I'm back. This is my first post this December 2011 as well as my last because right at this very moment it's December 31,2011 at 12 in the morning. I decided not to go to sleep early and wait for this day to come so that I could write my FIRST post this December 2011 and my LAST post THIS YEAR. I still can't imagine how time passed by so fast. New year is fast approaching and you know what? I got a feeling that this coming 2012 will be my year. Well, it's because 12 is my favorite number. I was born on the 12th day of January that's why it's my favorite :) Anyway, These past few days have been good to me. Nothing bad happened and I'm thanking the almighty God for that. I've been lucky also because me and my crush, Mr. #6 were chatting these past few days and i'm really happy that he's not like the other crushes that i have before. He's kinda different, I thought that he's strict because of his looks but i was wrong. He is Friendly and he always replied to my messages on Facebook. He's really nice to me. I'm just contented of what relationship we have right now. I don't expect for more. It's okay for me that we will just be friends. I guess 2011 will end good even though there were lots of bad things happened but i guess those things made me stronger. I am now ready for more challenging events this coming year 2012 but of course with the help of God because He is the source of my strength in facing really big problems or etc. and also my Family. I just really hope that i could pass the upcoming problems right just like those problems i had this year 2011. I expect to have more colorful life this coming 2012. Anyway,  I will not write here first my new years resolution because i will write it on my first post next year which will be tomorrow :) geez ! I really can't believe it. Anyway, it's my first time to get excited in welcoming a new year and aside from that, There is also one thing that i am excited for and it's my upcoming birthday :) wahaha :D Every time that i think of a  new year, I also think of my birthday and if God will still allow me to live next year then, I would really be very thankful because i can still share His goodness to you and can still write here. Actually, I am not fond of blogging before but i just realized that writing what you feel here will really be a great help. I mean blogging can help a lot especially when expressing your feelings. And I'm not really good at writing before but i guess it has improved base on what I've observed :) * hehe * oops ! I guess this is too long already and maybe i should stop now. I really hope that 2012 will be really nice to me ^_^ and oops ! I also wanted to say that when 2012 comes, let us Thank God for another year that He has given us. That would be all !

Kaimen is signing out...
We'll meet again next year ! :)
Bye 2011, Hello 2012 ^_^